I just feel as though I'm being shown that since I was lifted from the deep, deep darkness that my life was so embraced in just a few months ago, that I am now ready to give back. God is asking me for a payment.
Ever since finding out her conference would be nearby, I felt an incredible urge to do more than just "attend". I looked on her website closer and found a link to where you could sign up to volunteer during the conference. The position has a few requirements such as being able to stand for long periods of time (hello-I'm on my feet 12+ hours at work!) and you must be able to handle doing a lot of walking and stair climbing. Do-able for sure! So....long story short, I applied to volunteer and within a week's time I heard back. I got the email while I was at work. It was at the end of my day with about an hour or so to go before punching out. Once reading that email and realizing I was being choosen to volunteer-I was so buzzed up I couldn't stand it. I couldn't stop smiling. My heart felt like that of the Grinch's just bursting beyond it's seams!
I pray that God continues to work with me until I am the person he wants me to be. We can always get away from people who bug us, but when it's "you" that bugs you, well, that's a completely different story. Be at peace with yourself because no matter where you go, there you are! If whatever it is we're doing is so frustrating to us-like we're struggling with it-we need to ask ourselves if this is what we're really supposed to be doing. The only way out is through. In order to succeed at finding peace and joy we must go through the uncomfortable. Every journey has a beginning and an end. It's that part in the middle that can be crazy. We all have heavy burdens. If you've already wasted a lot of your life-then don't waste the rest of it feeling bad about the part you already wasted. Repent and move on. If you can't be at peace alone, you'll never be a peace with anyone else.
I know that "my" gift is being pruned and groomed to do something special. I'm ready to become a blessing to someone's day. I just have to remain calm and not get so damn analytical trying to figure out what that "gift" is.
While analytical thinking may be productive in some cases, it's not the best way to try and figure out what God has in store for me. I see in the pic above how it just NEVER ends! It goes around and around and around and around-I've been lost in the Wilderness for way too long, I'm not doing this anymore. I'm not going to worry and wonder where all the pieces of my life puzzle belong! My life is not mine. My life is in God's hands. I'm at peace with that!
I will remain as calm as I can (praying for help on that one!) be and just be ready for whatever journey I'm chosen to take.....
Tomorrow........I run! I have a 1/2 marathon on April 21rst and May 19th! Time to get it done!
Until next time........Blessings!
I know the feeling! I've surrendered so many things to God, and it really does bring peace. I too have felt (not on such a magnitude as you) that I'm being called. I have an overwhelming urge to give back by serving and leading some small Bible study groups. We were members of groups in the past, and they really help everyone in so many ways, and I totally feel that I can contribute and am being directed into this path. Blessings to you! :)
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ReplyDeleteThat's awesome you're feeling a pull into the bible study path! I went to one, uncomfortable at first~ but I consider myself a young Christian with plenty of growing to do yet~I enjoyed going.
I feel something strong from work~and I sense something to do with writing......oh well, I'll be shown soon enough!
You should come to the conference! :)
I went to one of her conferences last August! Good stuff!!
ReplyDeleteActually I have bad memory. It was Beth Moore! Whoops. I'm sure JM's are good too!
ReplyDeleteIt's ALL good-the same message, just told by different people and I'm more comfortable with the way Joyce does it.
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